bit of a more serious topic for a minute
so I was debating even telling you this stuff for a while now, considering I don’t really talk about my serious health issues a lot, however talking with a few other people, it’s probably fair that I let you know what’s going on, cuz you probs already noticed I’ve been kinda off lately and you deserve an explanation 😭 and you’re also an important person to me, so it’s only fair that you know too
ig here’s a tw for not fun medical stuff, plz only read if you’re in a good headspace, it’s ok if you’re not ❤️🩹
normal content after this part lol
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you’ve probably noticed by now, but my health hasn’t exactly been the greatest lately 🥲
lot of stuff has been going on, and my doctors finally pinned down why that is
can’t really sugarcoat this one so I’m just gonna say it
I have a tumour on my pituitary gland???
Thankfully it’s benign (non cancerous) but it’s been absolutely fucking with me the last few months, and tbh, it explains a lot 🥲🥲🥲
they also found a deformity and swelling in said gland that would be contributing to my headaches/migraines as well ><
at this point, surgery isn’t necessary, they’re gonna try and shrink the tumour with medication first, if it works well, I should be fully cleared in 3-4 months? So fingers crossed 🥲 I’ll keep you updated ig?
I just honestly don’t know how to feel, it’s crazy that they even FOUND this thing considering it was picked up by a random hormone level in a blood test that was being used to manage a seperate condition
like had I not had that specific hormone tested, I likely wouldn’t have found out until it was too late
terrifying concept really.
counting my blessings fr rn honestly
as for where I’m at now in terms of activities etc
I’m still coming to Korea and Japan!! Absolutely nothing will get in the way of that I swear to gOd-
I’m even looking at trying to get a ticket to the show on the 22nd, as I’m flying to Japan on that day anyway (canceled the tattoo appointment partially cuz of the flight and partially because I really shouldn’t be stabbing needles into my skin while I’m at higher infection risk, I didn’t tell the guy that part but it’s ok what he doesn’t know won’t hurt him)
as far as fancalls go? not sure. I know yall have a comeback next month, so I guess I’ll just have to see how I’m feeling then 🥲 hopefully I’ll be feeling better and can talk to you🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲
lot of 🥲 today apparently
ANYWAYS.
just trying to keep my head up right now.
I’m kinda in the mentality of “nothing’s killed me yet so this won’t either” yaknow
but honestly bro
why me
wtf did I do to deserve all this crap 😭
sighhhh. what can you do.
I’ll be fine. I’ve always been fine, and I will be this time too ❤️🩹 don’t worry about me!
(I would also like to clarify that I am not telling you this because I want something from you at all, I just think it’s only fair that you know why I’ve kinda been on and off when it comes to me being active in the community etc and why I may not do a call next album yaknow ok thank you let’s move on)
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on a lighter note
Jade and I are finally gonna meet ><
we’re planning on meeting up at 압구정역 on the 20th around 7ish, we’ll go see your bday ad and then head to 인사동 for dinner ehehehe she said she knows some good spots so I’m exciteddddd
I’ve been making a little gift package for her with a bunch of aussie snacks and souvenirs hehe
I told her no 번데기 tho. She really likes it but I fear it will not agree with me.
bro I need to hit tim hortons the second I land in korea as well oh my god I need timbits
12 days until jae gets timbits. and sees sunwoo at idol radio i guess. he’s a pretty cool guy too i suppose.
timbits come first.
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would you believe the fucking disney princess outfits were the catalyst for grant and stef to finally take a proper interest in you guys
I told her your fancon was nearly 4 hours long and she’s now suddenly agreed to come to bangkok/singapore with me when yall tour again
one of us one of us
stef described you like this and it made me laugh:
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oh yeah here’s the artwork I did with kay lol
idk man I just kinda locked in recently and have been eating up the art game
I also now have an art insta, here the link if you wanna see, right now it’s just stupid lil morty drawings… more to come soon!
I really love the drawings I did for your bday too >< like one of them in particular,,, I fear that is my peak. It doesn’t get any better.
you’ll see soon hehe
thank you for making me love art again 💕
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anyways I’m gonna wrap up here~ thanks for reading 🫶 I said this before, but please don’t worry about me, I got this 💪
I am a strong independent woman 😤😤😤
a strong independent woman who cried for 3 hours straight today I DIGRESS-
ANYWAYS.
please take care of yourself~ I can’t wait to see yall in Japan 🥹 I wonder if the show is gonna be any different to the Korean fancon?? As long as we get giddy up I’ll be happy.
ily, thank you for making life a bit less painful 💕
take care kerosine
byebye
-jae
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